“Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from nineteen to here and all the same feel like nineteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breath in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes. And that's only because you're trying your hardest and your hardest and your hardest to push away the only feeling, the only thought, the only thing that's the most important to you. More like a person. A person who got your heart and a person who got your soul and a person who was too blinded by worries and a person who broke you without even realizing. And that person is the person you push away from your thoughts and yourself so you can be fine in five minutes. You hope.” - She said.





“I remember when I was like five or six years old and my mum would tell me stories about love, friendship and sacrifice. She would keep telling me the same stories over and over again, until I was old enough to find out these stories were actually my mum’s.
‘Now you need to make your own stories, about these three things.’ she said. ‘But you don’t have to do it now. Take your time. Your whole life, even.’
From that moment on I kept looking for situations where I could write my stories about. I couldn’t wait to tell them to my mum, and make her proud.
Years passed by, and I still hadn’t experienced something related to love, friendship or sacrifice. I got frustrated, realizing I could never have these long stories like my mum had. That was until I met this girl. We went through so much that I couldn’t even remember everything. It was when she’d left I realized,
being with my mum.
‘Mum,’ I said. ‘I need to tell you my stories. You remember? Love, friendship and sacrifice, like you said.’
Mum looked at me surprisingly, clearly not expecting this at my age already. I was nineteen.
‘Tell me then, sweetheart.’ she said. ‘What’s your love? Your friendship? Your sacrifice?’
I smiled weakly, now obviously remembering everything the girl and I had shared together. ‘A friend, a very very very good friend, is what she was. And she still is, of course.’
Mum smiled at me. I felt uncomfortable.
‘And love... she’s got my heart, mum. Every single piece of it, and I don’t need to have it back at all. She can have it. As long as I can have hers, it’s okay. It’s definitely okay.’
Mum smiled again. Her eyes began to water. I still felt uncomfortable.
‘What would you sacrifice, sweetheart?’ she said softly. I first touched my face, then my lips. Seconds later I touched my neck, then my chest, right where my heart was pounding underneath the skin. When I began to talk, I didn’t feel uncomfortable anymore.
‘I’d sacrifice everything I have. I’d sacrifice all my money. I’d sacrifice my friends and maybe family, too, for God’s sake. Just to keep it simple... I’d sacrifice my life. I’d give it to her. If I needed to, I’d die for her. I really would. If she could only live with me being dead, then I would be. It’s for her, mum. It’s all for her. If she'd just see.’”
- He said.


You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together.


One Direction exist
Erm
Enjoy the story
WRITTEN BY ME

A sequel of this finished story
Reading The Moon Is Down first could be an option to get to understand this second part better, although it was written years ago and my writing has improved since. Please don't judge too quick:)




ALERT
Het begin van dit verhaal kan de indruk geven dat het een typische carrot story is; en dat is het dus écht niet! Lees een paar hoofdstukjes door en je zult het vanzelf zien!:)

Hoofdstukken

Titel Woorden Gelezen Aangepast
Dear diary 202 3831 5 jaar geleden
Play 747 3322 5 jaar geleden
Journey 644 2376 5 jaar geleden
Warmth 585 2034 5 jaar geleden
Sleep 736 2016 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 184 1966 5 jaar geleden
Distance 624 1923 5 jaar geleden
Dreams 944 1829 5 jaar geleden
You 1047 1842 5 jaar geleden
Plans 1017 1726 5 jaar geleden
Prepare 749 1808 5 jaar geleden
Confess 1060 1852 5 jaar geleden
His name 661 2041 5 jaar geleden
Hugs and love 832 2011 5 jaar geleden
Ignoscency 642 1826 5 jaar geleden
Talk that talk 1028 2011 5 jaar geleden
What I've been told 1461 1861 5 jaar geleden
Son, father and guilt 1019 2036 5 jaar geleden
Home is where the heart is 1229 1878 5 jaar geleden
Nerves and sweat 809 1996 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 128 1934 5 jaar geleden
Shock 1027 1875 5 jaar geleden
Flashback 3139 1971 5 jaar geleden
Garden work 925 2023 5 jaar geleden
Expose the secrets 1115 1979 5 jaar geleden
Acceptance 1344 1927 5 jaar geleden
TCA's 168 1842 5 jaar geleden
Meet you, meet me 1082 2034 5 jaar geleden
Cool down 1167 2001 5 jaar geleden
Eat your food 992 1884 5 jaar geleden
Clean your thoughts 945 2161 5 jaar geleden
See the stars with you 1886 2127 5 jaar geleden
Cry me a river 1458 2024 5 jaar geleden
Don't you worry 1731 1855 5 jaar geleden
Comfort me 1228 1880 5 jaar geleden
Wake me up 1288 1847 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 203 1725 5 jaar geleden
Call and clarify 1282 1817 5 jaar geleden
Dinner 1787 1972 5 jaar geleden
Reflection 1686 1693 5 jaar geleden
Take your time 1529 1894 5 jaar geleden
Our plan 1908 1871 5 jaar geleden
Stay 1028 1824 5 jaar geleden
Confused 1272 1837 5 jaar geleden
Feelings 1164 1860 5 jaar geleden
Good morning 1362 1713 5 jaar geleden
Comforting kiss 1791 1898 5 jaar geleden
Let me help you 1637 1757 5 jaar geleden
Together rather than alone 1443 1441 5 jaar geleden
It'll be fine 1404 1841 5 jaar geleden
Building's high like I am for you 1791 1668 5 jaar geleden
Curlyhead 1276 1615 5 jaar geleden
Tears 2540 2117 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 121 1553 5 jaar geleden
Be safe 1163 1641 5 jaar geleden
Desiring lack 4086 1774 5 jaar geleden
What am I doing? 2476 1650 5 jaar geleden
Tea 3803 1462 5 jaar geleden
Pizza's 2279 1634 5 jaar geleden
Tongues and everything 1325 1626 5 jaar geleden
Warm touch 2318 1701 5 jaar geleden
Frown 2099 1583 5 jaar geleden
Leave 3062 1257 5 jaar geleden
Beach 2516 1492 5 jaar geleden
Lost 1923 1779 5 jaar geleden
Hugs 2359 1316 5 jaar geleden
Breaths 1156 1279 5 jaar geleden
Trailer 74 1070 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 287 1045 4 jaar geleden
(Not?) Giving up 2998 1145 4 jaar geleden
My choice 1738 1243 4 jaar geleden
Meet all of you 3561 1320 4 jaar geleden
Uneasiness 1987 1215 4 jaar geleden
Your brother 2246 1248 4 jaar geleden
Concerten 116 1005 4 jaar geleden
Mijn (concert)ervaringen 3110 987 4 jaar geleden
Dusseldorf!!! 168 924 4 jaar geleden
Diner? Diner. 2021 1156 4 jaar geleden
British nights 5327 1316 4 jaar geleden
Can't resist it no more 3239 1249 4 jaar geleden
Shameful subjects 2707 1112 4 jaar geleden
See you later (alligator) 3164 1075 4 jaar geleden
Dear diary 144 879 4 jaar geleden
My story 1324 1059 4 jaar geleden
Meeting you again 4915 1119 4 jaar geleden
Hotels and pizza (and you) 2014 1087 4 jaar geleden
Period issues 1494 1028 4 jaar geleden
Paparazzi 2983 1064 4 jaar geleden
You ok? 2571 1279 4 jaar geleden
Fancy the beauty in her dress 2585 1101 4 jaar geleden
Hunger in the suit 2719 1060 4 jaar geleden
Guilt 2739 1202 4 jaar geleden
Don't let me go 2392 1247 4 jaar geleden
Oops 53 860 4 jaar geleden
Not a clue 2693 1062 4 jaar geleden
Phonecalls 3481 1103 4 jaar geleden
I missed you 4130 1104 4 jaar geleden
Realize the solution 3240 1087 4 jaar geleden
Promise me 3021 1188 4 jaar geleden
Surprise, sweetheart 4385 1008 4 jaar geleden
Fears and tears 3591 1363 4 jaar geleden
Touch me 5470 1167 4 jaar geleden
Sleepless nights 2222 974 4 jaar geleden
Weird feelings 2924 967 4 jaar geleden
Hey, you 2566 843 4 jaar geleden
Wait, what? 1522 929 4 jaar geleden
Share your feelings 1869 1042 4 jaar geleden
Don't you worry, beautiful 2741 1017 4 jaar geleden
Soothing you (a little too well) 2438 1091 4 jaar geleden
Nervously loving 2147 889 4 jaar geleden
The big day's begun 2593 795 3 jaar geleden
Meet your brother 2827 764 4 jaar geleden
Loving you 2760 943 4 jaar geleden
Other reasons 2681 790 3 jaar geleden
Goodnight kiss 2676 820 3 jaar geleden
Accepting us 2423 709 3 jaar geleden
Senses coming to life 2037 695 3 jaar geleden
Guilt 1475 727 3 jaar geleden
Openly dining 2767 651 3 jaar geleden
Quit 2229 662 3 jaar geleden
Wash away the sadness 2193 647 3 jaar geleden
If you come to me 2212 773 3 jaar geleden
When she calls 2551 692 3 jaar geleden
Intensely talking 2617 794 3 jaar geleden
Pulling away 3293 757 3 jaar geleden
Open up 2361 830 3 jaar geleden
Het mooiste concert ooit in Londen, 25/9 1894 630 3 jaar geleden
If I lay here 1960 659 3 jaar geleden
What's bothering you? 2059 590 3 jaar geleden
Wasn't it a joke? 2302 548 3 jaar geleden
No shame 2780 642 3 jaar geleden
Come talk to me 1576 584 3 jaar geleden
The speech (teaser) 1522 824 3 jaar geleden
Gather us together 2481 551 3 jaar geleden
Throw me a tantrum 2141 650 3 jaar geleden
Heavy in your arms 2383 637 3 jaar geleden
Guilty tears 1721 522 3 jaar geleden
If I could fly 1763 549 3 jaar geleden
Calm me down 2928 561 3 jaar geleden
We love you 1428 556 3 jaar geleden
Hold me close 1485 568 3 jaar geleden
Want a drink? 1799 524 3 jaar geleden
Let me worry 2924 519 3 jaar geleden
Hollywood Walk of Coldness 1613 539 3 jaar geleden
Cigarettes and cups of water 1896 557 3 jaar geleden
Only mean well 2239 509 3 jaar geleden
Morning sessions 1607 474 3 jaar geleden
Shudder 1727 568 3 jaar geleden
Sleepy tantrums and a happy embrace 2122 519 3 jaar geleden
Poll & blog 295 440 3 jaar geleden
I'll wait 2138 571 3 jaar geleden
Refugees 1643 568 3 jaar geleden
Wait for your return 1336 495 3 jaar geleden
You are home 2034 549 3 jaar geleden
Drive along 1884 445 3 jaar geleden
Tell me I'm innocent 1993 437 3 jaar geleden
Offers we make 2096 432 3 jaar geleden
Special solutions for special needs 2218 431 2 jaar geleden
Your real story 3928 432 2 jaar geleden
I promise you 1285 362 2 jaar geleden
You are my woman 1199 557 2 jaar geleden
Empty 2861 405 2 jaar geleden
Two years gone by 2930 79 2 maanden geleden

Reacties (21)

  • HARRYSTYLES__

    Abo! Wat tof dat je al 5 jaar deze story schrijft!! Ik weet zelf hoe moeilijk het is om soms na een tijd stilstaan qua inspiratie weer te schrijven..
    Ik ga hem zeker volgen!

    2 maanden geleden
  • VampireMouse

    (flower)hoiii


    Hoe gaat het??
    Wilde even laten weten dat ik je verhaal echt super vind en niet kan wachten tot je weer een hoofdstukje plaatst.(H)

    xxbyeee

    3 jaar geleden
  • Tumblah

    ik ga dit deel ook gewoon weer opnieuw lezen want yolo en zo:)

    4 jaar geleden
  • WhereWeArex

    Nieuwe Abo! Je schrijft echt geweldig en ik kan niet wachten op een nieuw stukje (:
    X

    4 jaar geleden
  • iphone4

    verder;)

    5 jaar geleden

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