“Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from nineteen to here and all the same feel like nineteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breath in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes. And that's only because you're trying your hardest and your hardest and your hardest to push away the only feeling, the only thought, the only thing that's the most important to you. More like a person. A person who got your heart and a person who got your soul and a person who was too blinded by worries and a person who broke you without even realizing. And that person is the person you push away from your thoughts and yourself so you can be fine in five minutes. You hope.” - She said.





“I remember when I was like five or six years old and my mum would tell me stories about love, friendship and sacrifice. She would keep telling me the same stories over and over again, until I was old enough to find out these stories were actually my mum’s.
‘Now you need to make your own stories, about these three things.’ she said. ‘But you don’t have to do it now. Take your time. Your whole life, even.’
From that moment on I kept looking for situations where I could write my stories about. I couldn’t wait to tell them to my mum, and make her proud.
Years passed by, and I still hadn’t experienced something related to love, friendship or sacrifice. I got frustrated, realizing I could never have these long stories like my mum had. That was until I met this girl. We went through so much that I couldn’t even remember everything. It was when she’d left I realized,
being with my mum.
‘Mum,’ I said. ‘I need to tell you my stories. You remember? Love, friendship and sacrifice, like you said.’
Mum looked at me surprisingly, clearly not expecting this at my age already. I was nineteen.
‘Tell me then, sweetheart.’ she said. ‘What’s your love? Your friendship? Your sacrifice?’
I smiled weakly, now obviously remembering everything the girl and I had shared together. ‘A friend, a very very very good friend, is what she was. And she still is, of course.’
Mum smiled at me. I felt uncomfortable.
‘And love... she’s got my heart, mum. Every single piece of it, and I don’t need to have it back at all. She can have it. As long as I can have hers, it’s okay. It’s definitely okay.’
Mum smiled again. Her eyes began to water. I still felt uncomfortable.
‘What would you sacrifice, sweetheart?’ she said softly. I first touched my face, then my lips. Seconds later I touched my neck, then my chest, right where my heart was pounding underneath the skin. When I began to talk, I didn’t feel uncomfortable anymore.
‘I’d sacrifice everything I have. I’d sacrifice all my money. I’d sacrifice my friends and maybe family, too, for God’s sake. Just to keep it simple... I’d sacrifice my life. I’d give it to her. If I needed to, I’d die for her. I really would. If she could only live with me being dead, then I would be. It’s for her, mum. It’s all for her. If she'd just see.’”
- He said.


You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together.


One Direction exist
Erm
Enjoy the story
WRITTEN BY ME

A sequel of this finished story
Reading The Moon Is Down first could be an option to get to understand this second part better, although it was written years ago and my writing has improved since. Please don't judge too quick:)




ALERT
Het begin van dit verhaal kan de indruk geven dat het een typische carrot story is; en dat is het dus écht niet! Lees een paar hoofdstukjes door en je zult het vanzelf zien!:)

Hoofdstukken

Titel Woorden Gelezen Aangepast
Dear diary 202 3786 5 jaar geleden
Play 747 3277 5 jaar geleden
Journey 644 2339 5 jaar geleden
Warmth 585 2001 5 jaar geleden
Sleep 736 1981 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 184 1929 5 jaar geleden
Distance 624 1884 5 jaar geleden
Dreams 944 1791 5 jaar geleden
You 1047 1793 5 jaar geleden
Plans 1017 1690 5 jaar geleden
Prepare 749 1784 5 jaar geleden
Confess 1060 1817 5 jaar geleden
His name 661 1989 5 jaar geleden
Hugs and love 832 1974 5 jaar geleden
Ignoscency 642 1790 5 jaar geleden
Talk that talk 1028 1974 5 jaar geleden
What I've been told 1461 1831 5 jaar geleden
Son, father and guilt 1019 1998 5 jaar geleden
Home is where the heart is 1229 1848 5 jaar geleden
Nerves and sweat 809 1965 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 128 1902 5 jaar geleden
Shock 1027 1841 5 jaar geleden
Flashback 3139 1941 5 jaar geleden
Garden work 925 1992 5 jaar geleden
Expose the secrets 1115 1939 5 jaar geleden
Acceptance 1344 1899 5 jaar geleden
TCA's 168 1813 5 jaar geleden
Meet you, meet me 1082 2003 5 jaar geleden
Cool down 1167 1967 5 jaar geleden
Eat your food 992 1866 5 jaar geleden
Clean your thoughts 945 2136 5 jaar geleden
See the stars with you 1886 2089 5 jaar geleden
Cry me a river 1458 1987 5 jaar geleden
Don't you worry 1731 1820 5 jaar geleden
Comfort me 1228 1843 5 jaar geleden
Wake me up 1288 1819 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 203 1694 5 jaar geleden
Call and clarify 1282 1786 5 jaar geleden
Dinner 1787 1934 5 jaar geleden
Reflection 1686 1661 5 jaar geleden
Take your time 1529 1858 5 jaar geleden
Our plan 1908 1836 5 jaar geleden
Stay 1028 1780 5 jaar geleden
Confused 1272 1800 5 jaar geleden
Feelings 1164 1827 5 jaar geleden
Good morning 1362 1686 5 jaar geleden
Comforting kiss 1791 1863 5 jaar geleden
Let me help you 1637 1723 5 jaar geleden
Together rather than alone 1443 1422 5 jaar geleden
It'll be fine 1404 1803 5 jaar geleden
Building's high like I am for you 1791 1646 5 jaar geleden
Curlyhead 1276 1583 5 jaar geleden
Tears 2540 2061 5 jaar geleden
Dear diary 121 1531 5 jaar geleden
Be safe 1163 1610 5 jaar geleden
Desiring lack 4086 1748 5 jaar geleden
What am I doing? 2476 1618 5 jaar geleden
Tea 3803 1438 5 jaar geleden
Pizza's 2279 1602 5 jaar geleden
Tongues and everything 1325 1600 5 jaar geleden
Warm touch 2318 1672 5 jaar geleden
Frown 2099 1557 5 jaar geleden
Leave 3062 1232 5 jaar geleden
Beach 2516 1463 4 jaar geleden
Lost 1923 1733 4 jaar geleden
Hugs 2359 1289 4 jaar geleden
Breaths 1156 1253 4 jaar geleden
Trailer 74 1050 4 jaar geleden
Dear diary 287 1031 4 jaar geleden
(Not?) Giving up 2998 1110 4 jaar geleden
My choice 1738 1220 4 jaar geleden
Meet all of you 3561 1295 4 jaar geleden
Uneasiness 1987 1191 4 jaar geleden
Your brother 2246 1219 4 jaar geleden
Concerten 116 987 4 jaar geleden
Mijn (concert)ervaringen 3110 967 4 jaar geleden
Dusseldorf!!! 168 896 4 jaar geleden
Diner? Diner. 2021 1135 4 jaar geleden
British nights 5327 1290 4 jaar geleden
Can't resist it no more 3239 1230 4 jaar geleden
Shameful subjects 2707 1090 4 jaar geleden
See you later (alligator) 3164 1051 4 jaar geleden
Dear diary 144 852 4 jaar geleden
My story 1324 1035 4 jaar geleden
Meeting you again 4915 1098 4 jaar geleden
Hotels and pizza (and you) 2014 1065 4 jaar geleden
Period issues 1494 1004 4 jaar geleden
Paparazzi 2983 1038 4 jaar geleden
You ok? 2571 1251 4 jaar geleden
Fancy the beauty in her dress 2585 1077 4 jaar geleden
Hunger in the suit 2719 1040 4 jaar geleden
Guilt 2739 1171 4 jaar geleden
Don't let me go 2392 1217 4 jaar geleden
Oops 53 842 4 jaar geleden
Not a clue 2693 1042 4 jaar geleden
Phonecalls 3481 1085 4 jaar geleden
I missed you 4130 1079 4 jaar geleden
Realize the solution 3240 1057 4 jaar geleden
Promise me 3021 1165 4 jaar geleden
Surprise, sweetheart 4385 990 4 jaar geleden
Fears and tears 3591 1321 4 jaar geleden
Touch me 5470 1138 4 jaar geleden
Sleepless nights 2222 951 4 jaar geleden
Weird feelings 2924 942 4 jaar geleden
Hey, you 2566 824 3 jaar geleden
Wait, what? 1522 908 3 jaar geleden
Share your feelings 1869 1016 3 jaar geleden
Don't you worry, beautiful 2741 997 3 jaar geleden
Soothing you (a little too well) 2438 1069 3 jaar geleden
Nervously loving 2147 864 3 jaar geleden
The big day's begun 2593 774 3 jaar geleden
Meet your brother 2827 741 3 jaar geleden
Loving you 2760 920 3 jaar geleden
Other reasons 2681 778 3 jaar geleden
Goodnight kiss 2676 795 3 jaar geleden
Accepting us 2423 684 3 jaar geleden
Senses coming to life 2037 670 3 jaar geleden
Guilt 1475 702 3 jaar geleden
Openly dining 2767 636 3 jaar geleden
Quit 2229 638 3 jaar geleden
Wash away the sadness 2193 630 3 jaar geleden
If you come to me 2212 747 3 jaar geleden
When she calls 2551 673 3 jaar geleden
Intensely talking 2617 761 3 jaar geleden
Pulling away 3293 718 3 jaar geleden
Open up 2361 800 3 jaar geleden
Het mooiste concert ooit in Londen, 25/9 1894 604 3 jaar geleden
If I lay here 1960 631 3 jaar geleden
What's bothering you? 2059 568 3 jaar geleden
Wasn't it a joke? 2302 525 3 jaar geleden
No shame 2780 596 3 jaar geleden
Come talk to me 1576 557 3 jaar geleden
The speech (teaser) 1522 795 3 jaar geleden
Gather us together 2481 521 3 jaar geleden
Throw me a tantrum 2141 619 3 jaar geleden
Heavy in your arms 2383 613 3 jaar geleden
Guilty tears 1721 497 3 jaar geleden
If I could fly 1763 532 3 jaar geleden
Calm me down 2928 541 3 jaar geleden
We love you 1428 529 3 jaar geleden
Hold me close 1485 547 3 jaar geleden
Want a drink? 1799 502 3 jaar geleden
Let me worry 2924 496 3 jaar geleden
Hollywood Walk of Coldness 1613 514 3 jaar geleden
Cigarettes and cups of water 1896 531 2 jaar geleden
Only mean well 2239 489 2 jaar geleden
Morning sessions 1607 446 2 jaar geleden
Shudder 1727 542 2 jaar geleden
Sleepy tantrums and a happy embrace 2122 501 2 jaar geleden
Poll & blog 295 424 2 jaar geleden
I'll wait 2138 543 2 jaar geleden
Refugees 1643 539 2 jaar geleden
Wait for your return 1336 472 2 jaar geleden
You are home 2034 524 2 jaar geleden
Drive along 1884 422 2 jaar geleden
Tell me I'm innocent 1993 412 2 jaar geleden
Offers we make 2096 413 2 jaar geleden
Special solutions for special needs 2218 408 2 jaar geleden
Your real story 3928 414 2 jaar geleden
I promise you 1285 341 2 jaar geleden
You are my woman 1199 531 2 jaar geleden
Empty 2861 363 1 jaar geleden

Reacties (20)

  • VampireMouse

    (flower)hoiii


    Hoe gaat het??
    Wilde even laten weten dat ik je verhaal echt super vind en niet kan wachten tot je weer een hoofdstukje plaatst.(H)

    xxbyeee

    2 jaar geleden
  • Tumblah

    ik ga dit deel ook gewoon weer opnieuw lezen want yolo en zo:)

    4 jaar geleden
  • WhereWeArex

    Nieuwe Abo! Je schrijft echt geweldig en ik kan niet wachten op een nieuw stukje (:
    X

    4 jaar geleden
  • iphone4

    verder;)

    5 jaar geleden
  • Manonxxx

    Hi,
    Komt er vanavond nog een stukje ??
    Dit verhaal is echt zo verslavend... xx

    5 jaar geleden

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